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08/18/2004: "On Being Disliked"

Today I saw someone I hadn't seen in a while; the reason she interests me is because she gives every indication of disliking me intensely. She was a church member for several years, but moved out of state and recently moved back. We had acquantances in common in the past but had very few dealings with each other, but obviously had contact enough for her to develop a distaste for me. I am confident that she can't know me well enough to dislike me for any legitimate reason (though, heaven knows, there are plenty of those) so it may be based upon some misapprehension or misunderstanding. It's interesting to me that I have become so used to being liked that one person's dislike should be such a novelty; interesting, also, that it intrigues me without upsetting me too much. Everyone wants to be liked, sure; but I don't care whether she changes her mind or not, I only want our coexitence in the same territory tolerable.